Monday, October 29, 2007
Butterflies in my Stomach
I am so nervous. I have butterflies in my stomach. I am starting to not be as scared though. I talked to my uncle who had the jaw surgery 15 years ago. He told me that when he had the surgery his mouth was wired shut for 6 weeks! I only have to endure 10 days of a liquid diet and he had over a month of it. He was never told by anyone (until the day of the surgery) that he would have his mouth wired shut, he never knew that he’d be on a liquid diet, he did not have the internet to talk to anyone who had this surgery, he had no idea what to expect or that he might have permanent nerve damage either. It sounded like to me that he went to a hack saw of a surgeon the way he described things to me. So unlike him, I know what I am getting myself into, I know what to expect to a certain extent, I have people online who have talked about their experience and who are totally happy with their results. My uncle does have permanent nerve damage due to his jaw surgery, he cannot feel certain parts of his face and there is a constant tingle feeling to his bottom lip and chin. However, despite his experience and the permanent nerve damage – he is still happy he had the surgery and he said if he had to do it all over again – He would. This made me feel a lot more at ease since I know deep down that I will be okay and even if something does go wrong, I will be happy with the end result. I am going to one of the best surgeons in the nation. I am nervous, but I think I am more anxious than anything.